A typical JQ morning.

Today's blog is going to tell a story about a typical scatterbrained JQ moment.

So I went to Oakland Community College in Waterford at 8AM this morning to meet with an advisor, and I got there 30 minutes early so I sat in a seat outside of the advising office until they opened. The advisor and I met for maybe 15 minutes, and I walked all the way out to my vehicle (ten minute walk) only to find out that I didn't have my car keys. So I didn't panic, I searched my car thoroughly and I didn't find them. So, I walked all the way back to the advising office and I asked my advisor if I dropped them in her office. She said no, so I went back out to my car and check again and no luck. So I started crying at this point and I walked back to the advising office and started asking the other offices if they had them, and no luck there. The receptionist called public safety and nobody had turned them in. So, I'm crying and the entire advising office gets up and starts helping me look around for them and they were nowhere. They called public safety again and nothing. So, the receptionist walked back with me to my car again to look around and we didn't find them. We walked back to the advising office and I started making plans to have people come get me and take me home to get my spare key, and once we went back in the advising office the other receptionist was jingling my keys. I left them on the chair that I was sitting in before I had my meeting and someone picked them up and turned them in an hour later. After a morning like that I stopped at Starbucks and got a huge sugar free soy vanilla latte on my way to work to make it better.

Starting Over.

My last blog (way too long ago) was a quote by Anais Nin that I love. It's all about how we grow up unevenly, and how past experiences, moments in the present, and dreams for the future swirl around us and guide us through life. Life is definitely swirling around me right now. Although I think I have grown tremendously over the last few years, I'm scared that I'll simply keep moving forward, ignoring what my heart, my past experiences, present moments, and future dreams tell me because its easier to do that, and before I know it I've missed out on some things that I really want for myself.

There are a few exceptions, but I'm pretty happy with my life right now. I have much to be thankful for and I have a network of friends whom I consider to be the most wonderful people I've ever met. Every day has become a new, unique adventure. Every day I meet new people. Every day turns into another fun story to tell.

That part of my life is perfect. But in other parts, I think I've reached some sort of fork in my road. The swirls around me are telling me to not let the grass grow under my feet (which is another really great quote.) There are things I want for myself that I let fall through the cracks. I know what my goals are and what I am capable of and it's either get busy and start achieving them, or let fear or lack of confidence win. I guess this blog entry is really a vow to myself to stop ignoring all the swirls, and start focusing on them.